All of us have been through a lot . So nobody should really questions anyone life or start comparing your misery with others.

Some say they wish they could return back in time and stop their past self from doing that foolish thing.

Nobody here seems to be getting the message here i guess.

If the past you did not made that mistake, the you now will never realize it was a mistake.

Be fair to yourself and no matter how much you struggle, the fact that your past is in the past, will never change. So why bother?

I have a lot of friends still living in the past. Even until now after years of their past have past. Ironic? Yes I’m talking about you. Yourself.

It takes time people. It really takes time.

Also please treasure what you have now. I don’t know why humans tend to get very greedy at all times. Thinking how they can keep everything to themselves.

Not sure about you, but to me that is one ugly hobby.

Does not matter you call them Friends, Best Friends, Mates, Lovers, or Whatsoever. They don’t come out often you know. Friendship.

They don’t just sprang out the stem in a day and turn into flower the next morning. We grow them. Like how farmers harvest their farm and reap all the benefits later. We harvest our friendship and keep the benefits.

With time you guys would realize, how you wish you would have understand this sooner.

I’m looking forward in your growing princess. Always do (:

Nels

What makes the world go by, if you cannot crush my life.

What hold you up so high, when you want it all the time.

Hello humans (x

I know you miss me!

As most of you already realized, blog is a way to express your thoughts. So please read through my thoughts (:

College.

Everyone are being selfish now. They are no longer cute as what I had mentioned previously in my other post. Nobody really cares about others feeling because they only care about themselves. I find this is so like humanity. (Can’t argue when it comes to overall mankind attitude)

So I don’t see them as one batch anymore. Some put up their own proud mask and walk around like those bastard and bitches you often saw in drama (:

Typical humans. Fine (:

Life

I love my life. I live it my way and everything is perfect.

Oh yeh..talk about perfect.

I stumbled upon a blog that give me an epic effect.

That is the first blog that give me the.. *you sit on a swing, and swing yourself high and then you will feel some funny reaction in your stomach* this exact feelings  when i was reading through the blog.

I get super excited everytime i click for ‘read previous post’ (x

Well well..

The owner must be a hell of a girl. *in love*

New shoes. New journey (x

Nels

Let’s talk about Green (:

Among the humans that I have digest, she is by far the best read. She complaints, She is pretty loud and also she acts like she was thinking but her top part organ never really process anything.

She is smokin hawt by the way ((=

Have you ever see a hypocrite or do you even know what hypocrite is all about? This type of humans usually live their life in denial. Green’s too.

She once said and even promised that no matter what others says about how wrong it is to have a close relationship with me, she will never listen to them.  Well, she lied.

For years I have been dealing with this situation where she always denies that she is fine when others are complaining about our good terms (i know what the hell right? Don’t they have anything better to complain about?) For years too I keep telling her that it is okay to be honest and throughout that many years she have always been  kickin’ around the school because she did CARE on what others said.

Green have a proud attitude. An attitude where one always have a belief of their own. But her beliefs always leads to the opposite meaning.

Take note. When you met humans telling you that they are correct and they have absolute confidence in their idiotic logic, is definitely a hypocrite.

Also there are this kind of hypocrite where they frequently disgusted on people who do not abide the speed laws but in reality they do speed themselves.

Green always come up with such silly complaints that personally I know she herself did do it. There this once where she keep on denying that she really hates smoker. Well she basically use up her last year in high school with bunch of them.

Okay me sleepy. byes.

Right now i am laughing.

Why?

Because the livings that revolves around me are slowly evolving and showing a new pattern.

Chapter 1

I will start with the humans that i meet everyday at college.  In my class there is someone who supposedly very quiet but now turn out quite the ‘friendly’ and pretty happening. Well, she also always paired up with this 160+cm tall girl that frequently stare at others and smile unknowingly ever since the first semester i observed her.

There is also a guy who looks pretty calm but always tempered up on some ‘little silly’ things. To add, there is also this guy who constantly being noisy and pretty much a talk -active male.

Little by little i know that he is also pretty sensitive

There is pretty much a lot to talk about and if i were to story up every single human that i meet, you might as well just take out my brain and plug in your laptop usb port.

But my point here is that, they have all started to show that they are getting pretty ‘comfortable’ with their batch.

Not only that, some of them even turn upside down from what i first observe. Like this pretty girl that are now pretty much talk-able and quite the conversation she have daily with the class.

Even more, she have a partner now.  ((=

Outside from my batch, people start to change too.

This girl now started to get close to me,

This guy now are very comfortable with me,

Even this sunshine, are quite the friendly with me and the pig who live above me.

But as usual they never really impressed me in terms of ‘life experience’.

Always that, always this, blame that, blame this, screw that, screw this, cry just for that, getting angry over this?

They are very cute still (:

But whatever. I am enjoying every little thing that happens now. Even as much as i hate sponsorship, i pretty much enjoy it.

In a different way ‘la’. c(:

YAHHHHH.

I  would like to complain about what happen lately (me related stuff)

My laptop hard disk meets it end.

Of course my laptop is pretty much in ‘abandoned’ state now. I have tried everything.

Install XP to Vista, From Windows 7 to Ubuntu. Create a Live XP CD, run Linux through live CD. Boot from pen drive and even try to run Safe Mode as ‘normal’ (can digest this? heeh)

After much frustration i assemble back my old hardwares and build a desktop. Through and through the same day my laptop gives away, my desktop hard disk as well (apparently this is my main DATA storage)

Fuck this right? haha.

I lose too much DATA in a day where i could barely stand up from my desk chair.

As sad as it sound, right now i am using this old desktop to run my daily schedule again (with much difficulty)

After my laptop learn to breathe again, i will return back to my own pace (:

This is what i really like. To type a long long post so i can have all the humans that visit this blog have a great deal of words keep running in a circle in their brain while the host thinking when this post is going to end.

Too bad for you. This post is not going to end yet. xD

I still have stuff to talk about. This time is about you.

Yes yes you silly.

What are you doing here reading my blog?

Exactly what you seek?

Is this even worth reading?

Or are you just simply LOST and end up reading this?

Have you got other stuff to do?

You are getting pretty annoyed now huh?

I don’t care its my blog.

Its my own goddamn post.

I’m asking you this now.

Are

You

Really

Interested

On

What

I’m

Going

To

Type

Next?

Whatever baby.

Every time you enter my blog, every single time you read my post, i know it very well that you wish for more right? (X

Okay humans bye bye.

But i have good news for facebook users out there (:  check out beeelow.

I knowww i know. Most of you face this problem call ‘Upload Failed’. Your hundred thousands of minutes waiting of your merely tens of pictures to be upload is driving you crazy. Am i right? ahaha gotcha.

Follow this guide below and yes you can enjoy upload your pictures that have been stacking up for so long in that tiny HDD of yours.

The problem is well known to most of us because of the goddamn java application that Facebook is using are not well coded. I’ll just shup up about this because most of you don’t even give a damn. You guys just want the solution right? Shut up nels

The one to replace the upload tools we use in Facebook is called ‘Bloom’

1. Download Bloom http://antaki.ca/bloom/download/2_7_1/Bloom_2_7_1_Win32.msi

2. Install it of course.

3. Drag your photos inside the big white blank column and login. A page will open in your browser.

4. If you haven’t login to Facebook yet, do now.

5. Accept the application in Facebook.

6. Your last step is just to press Upload at the right bottom in the Bloom software.

7. Oh forgotten. They might asked your permission again in Facebook to let Bloom upload the pictures for you. Just accept it (: No harm here.

Let the dozens of pictures that you kept free people! Let them FREE! YES THIS IS COMING FROM A GUY WHO SUFFER A THOUSANDS OF MINUTES SPEND JUST TO UPLOAD a stack of 161 PICTURES.

Sorry Facebook Techies. You guys just plain sucks

Hey humans. While uploading your pictures listen to my girls new song will ya? ITS SO OH OH OH!

Merry Christmas humans! Christmas is always fun to celebrate no matter in what country you are and whatever religion you belong to. We all just simply love Christmas. I know i do

Me finally on holiday..Just a week thou /:

The ads you see above is from ptptn official website. ‘Worry No More’ ?

What  funnier is that the girl picture on the laptop screen is somehow very popular among the guys. Thou i bet most of you have no idea who she is and what she does but yeah to those that knew, let just laugh this out loud. hah!

Oh ya the picture below will be my current workplace. I have not done any touch up because i am soooo lazy to even clean my room. very messy now heeh.

and so yeah my laptop is running dual screen (extend) to my LCD which mean if i bring my mouse to the left it will go to my laptop screen and if drag it to the right it will go to my LCD. Its like having two desktop it just that in this case it just a laptop with extra screen.

Booyah.

object

A lot to write out. So you guys should really grab a coffee or tea or simply anything before start reading.

Firstly, don’t come and barking when i talk a little bit ‘lame’ in here. Just to set up the mood

Okay. I bet every single one of you have gone through many things that in the end, gives you something that you can get from the meaning of this sentence

‘learn from your past’

am i right? Just said yes please.

Frankly said, i have learn a lot of things from my past and i could said that right now i can take anything directly without being mad or we call it being emotional. Yeah whatever Farz.

Say, i bet most of you have made such relationship as this :

* you found someone you can talk to

* establish a deep connection within them

* very deep relationship that you could not afford to lose

* a relationship that beyond the imagination of having a girlfriend/boyfriend

* they become your precious best friend or soulmate

and if you have experience above that, i believe most of you too will reach the next stage where you will lose them. Yes your unbelievable long talk in phone with them, your unimaginable secrets that you share, your thousands of credits on sms that you send, everything that you ever work for on having such relationship is

gone,

end,

and fullstop.

I bet a lot of you will going through a terrible disease we call ‘heart broken’ or the popular ‘emotional time’. Where whatever you do doesn’t seems right, moody, pissed off, sensitive, whatever else it is.

It will take a while for this guys to go through this 2nd stage.

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Now for you who have made it as far as this 3rd stage, you have somehow recovered and manage to ‘move on’. Yes it takes a hell out of you but you still managed to overcome it and here i am not congratulating you yet because trust me, this isn’t over.

You still will able to get a high chances of having another relationship as important as above. Then you might also lose it again. Only then if you are able to move on again, i would said,

Repent dude. Everything that happens to you mostly came from ‘KARMA’ where you might had done something bad before while building those relationship.

nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

It sucks to face such a life but tell me if you don’t have such a troublesome past, do you think you still be able to read my blog post and understand it?

Experience is such a beautiful thing. If i could put it into a food form, as you know all food can be cook again and again even if you finished swallowed em’ all. Tell me how can you finish eating up all the food in this world? No and yes its beautiful. Ahhhhhhh.

I still misses g r e e n /: *SO MUCH FOR STAGE 3 LA*

haha. enjoy the song below humans.

ouuuuuuuuuuut.

Now I’m alive

So you can watch me from the heavens as I rain down on your head
Tell me what you’ve always wanted and I’ll give you love instead
And when I wake up from this dream, it’s you that I’ll regret
If I have to break a promise to you, I’ll break my hand instead

You thought that I’d put down my pen but instead
I put down the pills that keep me from the edge of breaking down
in the back of this hotel room
I saw you standing in the corner of court
With a fist full of evidence that led to this
whole situation of me and my plea for insanity

I’ll take you on
Now I’m alive
I’ll take you on

So you can watch me from the heavens as I rain down on your head
Tell me what you’ve always wanted and I’ll give you love instead
And when I wake up from this dream, it’s you that I’ll regret
If I have to break a promise to you, I’ll break my hand instead

If I could make it to my funeral,
I’d smile to the crowd and say to dry your tears cause I’m finally alive

So you can watch me from the heavens as I rain down on your head
Tell me what you’ve always wanted and I’ll give you love instead
And when I wake up from this dream, it’s you that I’ll regret
If I have to break a promise to you, I’ll break my hand instead

its hard to be the only one standing

because you know you will be the last one to cry.

when i wake up from this dream

it is you that i will regret.

Hey there guys. I know i start this post a little bit weird from usual.

Stuff happens, here and there.

It just never stop. So..yeah.

Some words here.

Quickly and wake up.

We almost at its peak.

So don’t lose whatever you been holding now

Cuz you will never had the time to get it back.

logging out.

guess what?

i will let you do the guessing.

bye bye.

Okayy.

The topic title is ‘How long you’ve been admired someone and it started with this

 

Have you ever felt that feeling whenever you see someone, you freeze and your heart starts to beat so fast and you have to hold on to something so you wouldn’t fall?

Sometimes when they talk to you, do you utter stupid words and end up embarrassing yourself?
It’s not that you want it, but just the presence of that person makes your heart beat faster and slower at the same time.

Would you be brave and admit your feelings? What if it’s simply not meant to be, do you give up? Or keep trying and end up with nothing?

have u been admire someone?
how long?
i’ve admire this guy since 1998
now its 2009

11years?

So, do you have someone you admired? Well i do. hehe

Let me count. * * * * * *

Oh. It is only for 4 years thou.  I’ve always like this girl. If your a fanatic of something like korean pop star, where you will spazz everytime he/she sing, dance or laugh in a tv show or whatever it is. I can’t believe i did the same thing to someone i admire ((=

I will go like ” ahhhhhhhhhh she so cuteeeeeeeee ” “owwwwww sooo pretty” “omggggggggggggg i love her!”

it sounds weird thou. whatever. O_O

So yeah. Call me stupid or whatever. I am not sure myself. What i know is that, i really like her. Even if its only 4 years, i feel i have watch her for like 10 years? hehe.

O-kayyy. I will stop spazzing here. So, do tell me if you have someone that you admired. If possible a lil story bout how you fall for her is cool.

outtta!